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Ah what a week.
I am back at work as of today. The disfunction is FLOWING - tempers and egos. I have actually missed it. The nice part was someone had baked me brownies (peppermint patty ones) and the girls took me to lunch! I felt so wonderful...and driven crazy at the same time. My desk is a mess, the work is in huge piles and the worker bees are in a tizzy. Seriously, did you ever notice when people have cubes filled with The Office, Dilbert and Office Space stuff they become the point of the joke not the partakers of the joke? Ok so I do find myself wide eyed looking at the "camera" when crazy stalker talker starts her crazy talk.

I do have to make a call this weekend to L to explain a situation. Being the type of person who carries all sorts of guilt (deserved and undeserved) I just can't move forward until I mend this. I hope I have made the right decision. Indecisiveness feels like a pair of handcuffs and the decision was made so I must shake off the cuffs. As I do get older and life throws curve balls I have found myself pushing the small stuff aside. I never have been one to let things just roll off my back - how wonderful that would be. I guess I always have lived with that feeling you get when you get a bill or notice in the mail on friday when you get home that you can't do anything about until monday morning. Stewing, thinking and imaging all kinds of possibilities for 48 hours. Worse yet imagine a the feeling if it were a letter from let's say the IRS. Audit? Jail? Did I itemize correctly? Hours I would be able to dig into that scenario. Anyway, I am getting better. I can at least recognize things I have control over, things I may have control over and I have no control over that so don't waste my energy. To be honest carrying around all the weight of the worry of this is what was a contributing factor to my cancer. Bad stuff attracts bad stuff. Come on, haven't you read The Secret yet? Oprah says to so go get the dvd.

T and I are going to look at vehicles for me tomorrow. He is determined I need a SUV. If it adds to the pups traveling comfort (it would) then we should get it.



I was listening to our wedding Cd. We did one as a wedding favor...

"Your face is just beamingYour smile got me boasting, my pulse roller- coastering Any way the four winds that blow They're gonna send me sailing home to you Or I'll fly with the force of a rainbow The dream of gold will be waiting in your eyes"