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So today I spent a nice time with Mr PBS going to some antique shops. I found quite a bit of stuff but was very selective about what I chose to go home with me. As we were wandering around we kept seeing items that just brought us right back in time. It was odd how we would say "My Grandmother had that!" and the other would say "Mine too!" -
I always get a bit meloncholoy after days like this. Maybe it is all the thinking back to when you were little and your life ahead of you looming like the magical brick road. But what if your life was like the movie Sliding Doors? What if we were able to see what each fork in the road would look like? What if you could go back and make different decisions (think hairstyle 1984 to the boy you stayed with after catching him walking arm in arm with another girl.) I'd like to think there is another dimension where I am a headstrong and gutsy gal and after I had made my directoral debut, held my own art show, ended up on the NY Times best seller list, had a lovely child then I slowed down - just enough to solve the fiscal crisis.

Let me clairify. I think we all go through our 20's certain that our life will catch up to us. Things can be sort of frantic and swinging all around career and relationship wise but like the heroine in a novel we will conqueor the world. Now I do believe it's true we have the power to do whatever we put our minds to do but we get lazy (note by we I am speaking of ME)and certain dreams sort of peel away. So you find yourself thinking "what if" - your 30's are a time to slap your forehead about all the insanely foolish things you did in your 20's and applaud yourself at the same time. Yjour 30's are like the recovery after a hangover.
I am now in the beginning (I stress!) of my 40's and have the strange sensation of everything sort of molding together to become me as the real me. I am finding out it's not a bad thing I didn't move to a foreign country or grind the corporate world to it's knees but there is still time and if I want to I damn well will.

How the heck to I swing down the path of philosophical babble? I honestly was not looking to write this blurb but I'd like to know peoples thoughts on life and aging and your life living up to your expectations. I leave you with expect nothing and love what comes your way.