Since I still need a place to vent, exclaim, weep, dance and share I am up and running here in PBS land. I realize that while you are typing a few words out on a blog it is easy for those that don't know you to misunderstand who you are and what you embody. I know very well I do that. Ironically one of my best friend's always say "you are the most NON judgemental person I know and appreciate that." If you are my friend you discuss whatever you want with me. I am loyal. I will love you and be a shoulder.
Sadly though now I am censoring my topics as I am afraid someone might take it the wrong way. I was all prepared to talk about an item that has to do with a certain state as I am perplexed but because I am scratching my head on it will someone think I do not support their view? Will I get pushed against the wall on the topic not the situation? I am not used to this. Will they think I am making a stand for something when I am actually wondering about about "why." It's awkward and uncomfortable.
SO since I love lists here is my getting to know me list:
*I am in my early 40's (there. I said it. That was painful)
*I had a red Mohawk in high school. I had upteen piercings and wore blackblackblack.
*My father died 2 days after my 3rd birthday.
*I have known my BFF since I was an infant.
*I used to have a horse and ride in competitions.
*I fell off a lot. But didn't care.
*My only sister and I had a falling out years ago and didn't talk for a long time. This is why I try to be non judgemental and love you for who you are
*My favorite holiday is Christmas. I hate Halloween.
*I reconciled my past with my future. My childhood was a lot of good and a lot of bad. The bad can drag you down if you don't laugh and say "it's the past"
*I met David Bowie in 1983 and was thrilled but all I could think was "he has bad teeth"
*I hate lemon flavored food.
*I hate housework and usually find an excuse not to do it.
*I had cancer. I had a radical hysterectomy.
*I can't have children because I had cancer. I am not bitter but sad because of this. Some day's when my friend's have said they have not had sleep for 4 days I am relieved.
*I do not dress my dogs up and talk baby talk but I live for them. they are the most honest creatures I know.
*I am frugal but tend to splurge - a lot.
*Everyday I am in awe of this world of ours - also confused, enamored, grateful, disgusted, enlivened, aware but always always in love with it.
Goodness, just blog away! I enjoy your writings. Those who are offended get their feathers ruffled by others merely breathing and existing. Phooey to them. They aren't any fun.
ReplyDeleteAWWWW Boy I needed to hear that! It's been a rough week!!!!! Thank you for putting a smile on my face!
ReplyDeleteSometimes it is hard putting out there what you want to say, I find myself censoring what I write about once in awhile only because I don't want to hear the comments. I know I shouldn't do that, but I still do! you are not alone my friend=)
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